poorest one in the world.

I found that my daughter is a little self-abased. I had realized for a long time and i am trying to find ways but there is no changes till now.

Everytime when i am angry with her about her bad behavior then she will just stare at you without any other expression it seems that she is so poor.

When she do things wrong. she will be critisized, then she will have no expression with anyh words. Many times i told her to say what she want to say or can ponit out my faults.But she won't. many times i had no choice about how to communicate with her.

In fact, I am a little self-abased with myself in life. Maybe she is like me. It is maybe affected by our family.

My husband is the one with money-wasted. He do not have money to support our family. He can spend out all his monthly salary and then borrow money from his friends. We had a lot of quarrel about the problem. But he had never changed. So  I am the only one to support the family and my daughter. As times went on . I am easy to be angry even to my daugter. I admire those with considerate husband.  those with parents to help them or help them to take care of the their children, Admire those with their own houses, Admire those with their own business. those with common family aim......But it is a dream to me and my family.

Since my husband 's mother died earlier and his father is blind. So no one can help us expect ourself. I hope to live with common aim to buy houses and improve our living standards but he never join in. If you want to talk about it then he will be angry and shout at you. Many times i do not know how and what to do.So as times goes on i am a little self abased. I am the one only live on myself . It seems that i am the poorest one in the world.

On the way to do research work

I have never imagined that I would have a chance to do research work when I grow up .When I was very young,I always saw the researchers on television,I admired them,because they were excellent and great,and their job was honorable.Now I am a postgraduate,though there's still one year left for me to graduate,I have started to help with some research work following my teacher.Sincerely speaking,researchers are really laborious.They have to spend all the time to do research work and try their best to come up with new ideas.It is not a very easy job.I see many people who love their research work often work until 2:00 or 3:00 am.Those people have been lost in their research world and seem to be separated from the outside world.By the two years that I have accessed to research work,I gradually show interest in it.I know exactly there is a long way for me to walk in this research field and more efforts are required to do much better.